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00:00:01 there is a lot in the office it is not easy being in that moment there's a lot of internal feelings and thoughts and a lot of pressure that we put on ourselves when it gets to the point of literally deciding that the last few months last few years last few hours that you've wasted your time time with someone or something that does not support you in the manner to which you support them true or not factual or accurate is not ever the true factor in that moment sitting with that ocid building up filling your gut your kidney your large

00:00:55 intestines and small intestines your liver being overworked by the AET that that engenders because it does engender a [Music] certain poison that is always at the core of our Humanity we all without getting morand or maab or giving into that depression understand that we have a finite time here conscience and cognizant of ourselves and that finite time no matter how long no matter how Bountiful always leaves us wanting more to not have wasted moments to not have given our hope our faith and trust

00:01:47 to those to whom it means nothing that response and reaction to that feeling varies in levels of self-deprecation to outright villain against self and the world around us to put it another way feeling like a wasted your time is the worst place to ever exist because it feels as if you are a fool looking in the mirror realizing that you wasted time with that jackass you gave a good portion of yourself for their use for their humor for their comedy and their enjoyment and what you have to show for it is a

00:02:32 handful of flaming and you do hold on to it it sits there clinging to every facet of you working from a little pin siize prick somewhere deep in your soul flooding the entirety of your being and that's where the codery is just as Joi has lost the entirety of of his existence save what his dear friend his MAA his associate a person who loved him Beyond himself without ever having to use any bit of grand eloquence to describe it in those Quiet Moments of Joi being taken into his trust those nothing smiles and the odd

00:03:20 discussion of jeans and how they're cut and the appreciation of Jo's craftsmanship his attention to detail those moments that meant the world after in recollection but in the moment meant nothing it was just small talk it was just well you know he's a good guy I'm a good guy makes sense that he wouldn't mind having me around after all he's not like he could know what me and my S would do no he couldn't know he because if he knew how could he have anything positive how could he when I don't is in

00:03:59 those moments looking back that Jo realizes that the candy man has taken him under his wing not just politically but all of those hundreds of small moments along the way have been the candy man saying you are worth my time you are worth my efforts you are worth my [Music] love and as Joi deals with that comes to grips with being taken into his confidence being moved into onto the list of people whom the Candy Man Would avenge and do very much more to not have to avenge the wrongs done them and as those realizations happen as

00:04:47 those thoughts percolate as Maddie leaves you all in a definitive moment a similar understanding is happening lader and India and Annabel you will literally by active stepping forward and accepting or by not fleeing this moment have risked and watch others rest their souls on your say to have tied themselves in the only way that matter by voting with their feet and with their body to you there's a certain bravery in that weakness cuz it is a weakness each of you being lock step into this decision

00:05:48 of moving forward is now a liability to each and every other one of you if anyone found out or finds out how how closely you all have allowed yourself to become how much of yourselves you are have allowed to be risked every other member present there a weakness that could be used against you they're a weapon pointed that you because once you admit to yourself and understand that you actually care in the least for another person they are now a weapon that could be used to carve away pieces of your

00:06:42 heart so much easier not having is as you all sit in the very warm comfortable Ambiance of ashers cabin in his sanctum of sorts tomorrow being a crime yet to happen the night moves at the night moves like to officially say thank you all for being here and this is without a shadow of a doubt season 4 the dark of Bethany subtitled The Mirror's face and tonight's episode is little pig seeing the wind the door is caught the CL the catch locking into place the gently billowing and shimmering light from the fireplace crackling and singing

00:07:51 to you all in the way that only flame can to paraphrase is a great American [Music] poet what Doom I guess um Josie's just going to look about the room and go all right we we got to act up until now we've been the reactionary party but we've got to do something about this whether or not Maddie shows up to help us with his one thing but we do have to start making ground agreed or am I just a little too [Music] ghoo L be confused cuz last one we were alone somewhere did I lose time time again for some

00:09:02 reason oh oh oh when we last left off were me and India in a room yes ah ah thank you like I said the the regular schedule being tossed into AR Ray is thrown my memory into AR Ray so hey India how are you [Music] doing everything okay but you the one that said you wanted to talk to me but I think yeah I know I just I'm just trying to figure out how you're doing because this can't be good on any of us not just [Music] me I'm not taking my brother out there somewhere hanging in balance I don't like that was the bait

00:10:00 anybody but him but decisions were made and I will stick by what I say I don't know what else to do you know we as far as more Lita Lita knows all that weird so maybe maybe she can help you get a hold of him maybe my so kind of feel like I don't know what's real anymore what ain't because that being and that creature that thing that we just made promises to has been manipulating us the whole time that's give one of the unfortunate things yeah it's it's one of the unfortunate things about the existence

00:10:51 that we all now share that um something's always manipulating you something is even if you don't know it I I I try not to pay attention to that much anymore I guess being Kindred is the nature of being somebody's puppet as long as they're somebody stronger than you absolutely but there are things that we can control and things that we can affect hopefully with lead his help your brother is one of those things you know [Music] what she kind of lik gets a little Clos to him looks at him what what so much in the past couple

00:11:54 months when we met each other again that first night you really scared man doing the best you could but jumping at every Shadow and now you're practically walking through them Shadows using them like a cape is that a good thing I don't know I mean it's like the littlest dog getting put in the pound and coming back as the back leader of the Wolves or however you want to say that got cute okay that oh that's that yeah that's good then I I don't know how I've changed uh I guess just having it it's

00:12:55 hard when you're looking at it from the inside it's like somebody losing a gain and weight they don't know till it's too late and somebody said oh have you lost weight o girl you might want to have a cup of salads or some other rude and that's when you realize oh something didn't change to somebody else points it [Music] out just kind of without really realizing or or keeping in mind that he physically can't change too much in his current state he does seem to like look down and pull on his shirt and just just

00:13:38 mut I don't think that gained any way that tickles her to no end [Music] and own good oh oh speaking over emotions to around him apparently I've been sleeping on some things I didn't know oh well actually we haven't seen each other in a long time so I assume things changed while you were [Music] away yeah a lot changed while I was gone honestly [Music] but what what's you've realized hello I'm sorry for interrupting you please just go ahead it's fine it's fine it's I know we're on the younger side of

00:14:53 things never a movie not well it's been a while now because it's an older movie or that's crazy that it's considered an older movie but older movie Martin Lawrence he goes back in time stop me if you know where this is going all right I will when I figure it out she rolls her eyes and have legitimately rolls her eyes your daughter's afraid that and not in a bad way oh okay gotcha got gotcha um you know what I really should pay more attention to [Music] Media while out in the living space Lita you have

00:16:08 never been in the presence of an actual entity strong enough to Caporal eyes without being summoned a entity strong enough to cause group hallucinations visions and premonitions and entity stronger enough to cross the veil of its own valtion at least that's what you would have said until tonight sitting in the presence of Mir as your Cod members have joined their [Music] army it's a Once in an immortality situation something that strong something that powerful that has taken weeks to manifest in the way that it has

00:17:05 but yet still managed to [Music] manifest where does that leave [Music] you pretty suspicious of her I'm kind of maybe talking about minor points of the Bor [Music] gun well while Joi and India are indisposed in the Next Room that does leave Annabelle who standing before the beat Metal mirror attempting to you're not sure what they are attempting [Music] to she's trying to see if she can tell where Miry is gone and what is she doing at this moment [Music] [Music] she's looking into this compact mirror